Thursday, December 27, 2012

21 Months

Matthew:
- Clothing Size:  18 months, but is definitely growing out of them
- Pampers Size:  3
- Teeth:  16
- New word(s): "ba" for ball
- Savours his advent calendar chocolate every morning...he takes little nibbles at it
- All of a sudden figured out how to match up the colours/shapes in the shape sorter ball without assistance
- Has a HUGE obsession with the telephone.  When it rings, he runs and points to it.  When you're on it, he watches you.  When you're done, you HAVE to hang it up again or he endlessly points to the base saying "egh, egh, egh"

Kayla:
- Clothing Size:  2T (but still can wear 18 & 24 month clothes)
- Pampers Size:  3
- Teeth:  12
- New word(s): "Boo" for Blue
- Eats her advent calendar chocolate in one bite.
- All of a sudden figured out how to match up the colours/shapes in the shape sorter ball without assistance
- LOVES sorting mega/wood blocks by colour.  She'll select a colour and then will build a tower with just that colour
- LOVES wrestling/being tossed around by Jon.  I know she definitely missed it while we were in Ontario because she kept trying to wrestle with me, but I'm just not as strong so it wasn't near as fun for her.  That's her and Jon's "thing".
- Loves wearing my shoes.  She's discovered that I have a shoe rack in my bedroom closet and will pull out a few pairs of shoes and will walk around in them.
- Plugged my parents' toilet 3 times in a matter of a couple weeks due to the size of her poos.  Speaking of which, we went to a pediatrician (Dr. Ng) who has recommended that we switch to a different laxative and really focus on her diet.  The doctor did seem more concerned over Kayla's speech (or lack thereof during the appointment) than the constipation.  For the record, I'm not concerned about her 'slowness' at all.  Myself and all of my siblings were 'slow', and Kayla definitely demonstrates that she understands us so I'm sure she's just like me.
- Loves wearing Candice's old doll carrier "snugly".  She cuddles the baby against her as if it were a real baby.
- Says "Byyyyyye" if Matthew is in 'her space' when she doesn't want him there.  This is also usually accompanied with trying to pry his fingers off whatever he's touching of hers and/or pushing him away.  Matthew gets so upset.

Our typical daily schedule:
8:00am Wake-up and have breakfast (cold cereal)
8:30am Bath-time
10:00am Snack time
12:00pm Lunch time (at the picnic table (inside for the winter)).  They just chose to sit there one day so that's what we always do now.
1:00/1:30pm Nap time (usually about 1.25-1.5 hours)
3:00pm Wake-up and have snack
5:00pm Dinner time
6:30pm Head to my parents
7:45pm Back home for a bottle (7oz), brush teeth, and book.
8:00pm Bed time

Friday, December 21, 2012

Ontario

My mom and I had been hoping to go to Ontario to visit my brother and his family in March, before Matthew and Kayla turn two (because they fly for free until they're two), but then between Christmas and my brother coming out this way to visit it just didn't seem do-able.

Three weeks ago my mom came up with this crazy idea to go and visit David and Laura and the girls herself, on a spur-of-the-moment-let's-not-tell-Laura-and-only-tell-David-so-it-will-surprise-Laura kind of trip.  The day we found out that the frozen embryo transfer didn't work, my mom asked if I (and the kids) wanted to join her.  YES!  We quickly booked a ticket for me...and the excitement of it all began.  It was so nice to have something to look forward to after receiving the negative news.  I joked to my mom that I should blog that I was going, to which she agreed...and then we laughed because she had totally forgotten that Laura is one of my religious blog-followers, and if I blogged about it the surprise would have been ruined.  I was so nervous about spoiling the surprise that I started avoiding her on facebook chat.  :)

We spent the next six days planning for stressing about the flight.  How do you keep two children content on your lap in a squishy plane for 4.5 hours straight?  Well, God was definitely on our side.  The ONLY empty seat in the plane happened to be between us, so Matthew and Kayla enjoyed a nice nap with their heads resting on our lap.  For the rest of the time, Matthew had fun giggling during the turbulence, Kayla had fun looking out the window, and then they played with little toy animals my Mom had bought as a last-minute purchase.

Our visit in Ontario was wonderful.  It was so nice to see the girls again, and it didn't take them long to warm up to me.  The four kids had a lot of fun together.  We mostly just stuck around the house, playing toys, eating food, and talking.  It was great.  It was nice to see their life out there as I pretty sure I won't be going back any time soon (for financial reasons...flying is expensive!).  It was Remy and Carly's first birthday so it was fun celebrating that with them.  By the end of our trip, you could tell that Matthew and Kayla and Remy and Carly were getting much more comfortable with each other because they started to become possessive over toys and tease each other.  Matthew started getting a cold out there, so he spent all but one evening sleeping in my mom's and my bed, just so that he wouldn't wake up the house during the night with his crying over being stuffed up.  One morning, we woke up and I had 2/3 of the bed and my mom and Matthew were sharing the remaining 1/3 because Matthew wanted to lay right by her.  Another night, he kept wanting to hold her hand, even when he was sleeping.  Too cute.

The flight home was good.  The plane was packed, so I ended up in a middle seat.  We took a red-eye flight, and luckily Matthew and Kayla did sleep for most of it.  I only slept for about 10 minutes of it, and then since we've been home I've been crazy busy.  I think I had 16 hours of sleep in all over the first three nights being back because I had to work morning shifts two of the days.  Oh well, busy is good.

I can't believe it's only been 2.5 weeks since we found out the transfer didn't work.  It feels like forever ago.  I'm really glad that I was forced to take a month off before the next transfer (due to office closures)...I think I would have been ready to jump right into it emotionally, or physically.  I was expected to have a super heavy period...but it ended up being lighter than normal so I'm glad my body will have one more period before we start medications again.

Anyways, my family is opening gifts tonight...I can't believe it's Christmas-time already.  Maybe because so much other stuff has been going on so I've been really busy.  Anyways, I'm looking forward to Matthew and Kayla opening gifts :)  I think that's the part I'm most looking forward to.  That, and the food.  I LOVE Christmas appetizers and desserts.  YUM.


Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Frozen Embryo Transfer #1 = Fail

So I saw the results on myehealth at 2:10pm...and my beta is 4...which means I am 100% not pregnant.  It sucks, but oh well...the chances weren't very high of it working anyways.  BOOO.  The nurse from Genesis called at 3pm to be the "bearer of bad news".  She was very good at it, but I already knew so she didn't have to be as sympathetic.

So where do we go from here?  I stop all my current medications ASAP.  She told me to expect my period in the next couple days and that it will be heavier than usual (which I'm assuming is because my lining is thicker than a non-medicated cycle).  Typically, I could start my next frozen embryo transfer as soon as I get my period, but, because of their two-week Christmas closure, I have to wait until my next cycle, so in January some time.  Day 5 embryo, we're coming for you!  You BETTER survive the thaw!

Monday, December 3, 2012

1 More Day

In seven hours my bloodwork will be complete, and I'll be waiting for either myehealth to be updated with the test results, or a phone call from Genesis, whichever happens first.  I'm not really even nervous right now...not like I was with Matthew and Kayla.  Maybe because I would rather not know the results?  It's nice being in a "maybe I am" state of mind...because at least there's hope there.  If you get a negative then that hope is gone, at least for now.

Anyways, I should be tired and sleeping, but I'm like my kids who were bouncing in their beds for over an hour before I took them out to watch 15 minutes of Barney and then put them back to bed with 3 oz of milk in a bottle.  It worked...but definitely something I don't want to become a habit.  As I was saying, I just don't feel like sleeping right now.

Jon told me not to call him with the results, because he wants to be able to get as much done as possible at school  before coming home, and doesn't want any positive or negative distraction.  Fair enough.

Wish us luck for tomorrow...hoping for a lot (or a little, I'll take anything!) of HcG to be in my blood :)

Sunday, December 2, 2012

12 Down...

...2 to go!

Matthew is sleeping on me on the couch as I type this (yes, I know at 4:19pm...guess the 45 minute nap I allowed him at my parents starting at 3pm was not quite enough for the day.  Hopefully he's not up too late tonight because I have between 2 to 4 hours of BackCheck work that I have to do, starting at 8pm).  Anyways, as he's sleeping on me I can't help but wonder, "Big kid on me, little kid in me?"